| i dont know how to deal with this..... and i dont want to....can i just rewind two weeks???
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| trying to get something accomplished today.....
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| so up till now, my thoughts about the accident have mainly been, why am i so stupid, why did this have to happen, and poor daddy has to deal with it while i traipse off to south america and try to survive school. but now i just really miss my car. like deeply. it was 10 years old, just a honda, and the paint was oxidizing.. but still. ive been driving it since i was 17. it was like my constant companion and i depended on it so much. so many trips to socal, so many memories, so many places. sigh. i miss you....a lot. i took you for granted, thought you'd always be there. miss the sound of the trunk popping, the beep when i lock you, the sound of the turn signals clicking. and i hate that the last time i saw you you were so hurt and i just abandoned you on the side of the road, not thinking you had 6k worth of damage or that i might never see you again.
and now i'm talking to my car.
haha.
sigh.
dec 1, 2008: "dec. is always a tumultuous month for me. let's see whats in store for me this year." not exactly what i had in mind, life, but thanks anyway.
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| had such a good time in vegas!!!
thurs.
arrived at em's. beautiful apt, wonderful dog, Mr. Henley.
fremont street. ate at lanai's.
watched out cold and drank cranberry+rum.
fell asleep on air mattress. jen claims i was shoving her off.
fri.
paris buffet = fail.
outlet shopping!
dinner at grape grape. vodka penne.
ka = fail.
wasted space at hard rock cafe.
rocked out to smile empty soul.
ate pasta
sat.
paris buffet - is a go!
miracle mile.
mystere is a go!
pho dinner
encore viewing = fail.
wynn - beautiful.
the griffin.
fremont st. light show.
surprise patron.
random bar fail.
grilled cheeses.
gingerbread house fail.
sun.
excalibur buffet.
flight - thank god it was delayed.
raining in the bay. fail.
fun fun.
vienna teng.
fun fun.
ecuador.
fun fun.
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| hey love / i am a constant satellite / of your blazing sun / i obey your law of gravity
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